Census

Wow, I was NOT expecting this.  Seeing the return address gave my heart a jump, thinking it was an overdue tax notice.  Opening the letter, I breathed a quick sigh of relief seeing that is was merely the town census.  Almost instantly my heart was in my throat, seeing the deceased column, thinking how awful that will be to have to check off that column next to Amber's name....unfolding the letter and seeing only two names instead of the six we had last January.   Then came a sharper pain, knowing that the babyMomma and her husband would be opening a town census form with four names and having to go through the agony of putting the check mark in the deceased column.

 It is so very hard being a parent and NOT being able to take away your child's agony and unbelievable heartache.  I know I have a heavenly Father who is more than equipped to hold me and shoulder this pain with me and I pray that the babyMomma and her hubby know that too and are daily holding that pain up to him and not trying to shoulder it alone.

Psalms 147:3  He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.

On a more positive note, the babyMomma and her hubby will be able to fill out the dog owner information now!  No dogs allowed while they lived with us.